As of right now the overall look of this blog and website will be changing little by little. I need to get inside the guts of the site and change the heading fonts, colors and other aesthetics of the brand new POISON ARROW PAPER CO. and yes, you are seeing pink. Technically I wanted my branding to be rose gold, black and white with a pale rose gold that borders on white. A tint, I guess you'd call it.
I will go into to detail where the new name came from and why I've decided to change it in another post. Also, for those who may not be aware, I will post a brief update on where I've been, trying to keep my story of eight months of hormonal toxicity hell to a condensed minimum. Toning down the long-windedness and not allowing my severe ADHD and autism to get in the way of my ability to communicate easily and provide easy to understand context to my posts. To condense that part into one paragraph, my body suddenly stopped metabolizing estrogen. Women have a both good and bad estrogen. The bad gets filtered out and the good stays. In my case, my body no longer was filtering out the bad, leading it to build up in my bloodstream and eventually it began to poison me. I was completely bedridden, covered in acne, my hair falling out, my joints aching so bad I couldn't move without screaming, seizures, chronic fatigue, sweating to the point I was constantly dehydrated and I had gone from 110lbs to 157lbs in three months. Doctors wouldn't even run a simple blood test to determine if my hormones were the cause. After the COVID "vaccine" I tried to warn everyone about only to be met with death wishes... eventually proven 100% right, I no longer trust doctors anyway. I figured out the estrogen dominance, eventually proven to be estrogen toxicity at this point, and I'd even started treating myself with OTC supplements, diindolylmethane or DIM, Sulforaphane and Calcium D-Glucarate along with magnesium. I'm currently 128lbs, acne free, my hair is thicker, I have energy again and my pain, once easily a 10 is now a 2 on bad days. I still have horribly PMDD symptoms within the 3 days before my cycle, but I no longer have cramps, store breasts and my periods last a single day. Eight months of business lost, excruciating agony and believing I was going to die. Once I get back to work, I realize I'm so far behind I didn't think I'd ever open again, much less have you all still around. I thought you had given up on me. I had shut the store down to work on planners that I wanted to offer, but was never able to reopen due to becoming so ill during those few months. Since my symptoms have been 90-95% eliminated and I'm able to work again, I come to find out just how difficult and expensive it is to create a quality planner and I refuse to produce half-assed crap. My dream of creating a planner, one that not only helps those with scattered, chaotic or ADHD minds stay organized, but also one that merges with a workbook that helps people, primarily women, become stronger, more self-disciplined, spiritual and empowered through learning manifestation work or Shadow Work. I'm stuck on which road I want to take. The hyperfication of creating this planner has become an outright obsession and my perfectionism doesn't help. Creating the perfect planner has been the most difficult creative/business task I've ever undertaken. I've been so wrapped up in trying to catch up and get my one BIG planner made while also trying to keep binding books and making less in-depth planners, notebooks and notepads for the store that I haven't even been able to open yet. I also made the mistake of attempting to move to Shopify. Big mistake. That was a disaster. That wasted at least four months and trying to hire someone drained me of the money I had saved on hiring a printer to oversee the bulk printing on my final work. The worst part, my husband, my dear love, who believes in me wholeheartedly, has funded the expensive equipment, materials, useless website developers, courses, stupid mistakes I've made, etc. and I can no longer continue to flush our savings that he, at 62 years old, works his ass off for and owning his own small business now, there's no retirement plan in the future for him except me. I cannot and will not waste anymore of his money while I attempt this 100% solo. I have only two choices, make one amazing planner/workbook for 2025 or go back to bookbinding which will never go anywhere and I'll always have that planner dream sitting there wasting away. I've chosen the planner, however, I have tons of items ready to list in the store, but I don't have time to eat or shower, getting three hours of sleep and still no time for everything. I have the printing company I plan to work with. I have the size, look and feel for the book and I'm just stuck on which type of planner to create. Manifestation or Shadow Work? I'll be including a poll on Instagram for anyone and everyone, whether you plan to purchase one or not, I just want your opinion... which would you rather have? I plan to give at least 10 away to random followers, so you may just receive one absolutely free! I'll be posting polls periodically for opinions on details because I want to make a planner that I believe in, but also one that YOU want. One that aligns with YOU and will help guide you in your personal and spiritual development endeavors. Each year I hope to create a new planner (in two parts, one for the first half of the year and one for the second half of the year) that revolves around a different sacred subject from Shadow work to manifestation to crystal work to sacred journaling. I'll be updating this blog frequently so please check back for updates. If you'd like to help support the costs of having at least 100 planners professionally printed which will cost more than I have to spend at the moment, please consider joining me on Patreon. I'm working on uploading free witchy planner printables and depending on what tier you choose, you may even receive a monthly stationery box in the mail! You can join me on Patreon at patreon.com/samivalens Love you all! Sam |
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